Manifestation and Why didn't my spell work?

One of the age old questions that face magic practioners and any time of long term prayer/spell work is why didn't my spell work?

This is not going to be a long treatise on the ins and out of spell work. However, I has some minor wisdom...

Are you sure it wasn't answered? Are you really sure?

There are usually pat answers that the request didn't work because either the answer was no, our intent wasn't focused enough or that free will of multiple people are involved that muck things up.

About a year ago, I had won a reading from a facebook friend and she had asked if I would be interested in trying out a new oil she had conjure or I entered the contest for the oil and the reading I cant remember the details except I had the priveledge of trying out her new oil.

It was a truth oil, i had been struggeling with some health issues and was going to see a new endochrinologist. Long story short I did find out some interesting facts that has led to an increase in my health. I had also used the oil for helping me face some personal truth.

I am not sure what I was expecting as a result. I think something Charmed esq involving lights, trumpets and sounds but it was a slower process and not clearly visible.

All I can say is that I did start addressing some major and minor issues in my life as a result and changes have happened and are still in the progress of happening.

Don't get discouraged if you are not seeing tangible results. Sometimes they just take a little while longer to reach us and not always in a form we recognize until later.

As we approach Lammas, I encourage you to challange your perception and honor where spells and prayer requests are still in the process of being answered.

Blessed Be!

Changes, Study Focus etc....

Merry Meet Beloveds:

I have been away for a while. Life getting jumbled up with dealing with depression and reevaluating where my focus and priority is.

Work has been its usual crazy self and home has been interesting.

Now that the dust is settled and I am grounded and centered.... I am choosing to change the focus of my study for a little bit and my posts.

I am choosing to embark and a serious study of conjure/hoodoo practices and hopefully write more about the folklore of magic.

My hope is to post at least once a week on a relevant topic and attempt to get back into an actual cycle with this stuff.

Thanks for your patience and continued reading.

Blessed be!

Spring comes to Minnesota in time for Beltane and the start of summer!

Last friday we saw what will hopefully be out last big snow fall of the year.

The exciting news is that the Leaky Cauldron is not leaking. My front porch and back deck are clear of snow. Once the rain stops, I will be able to start having my morning cuppa outside again.

Tinkerbell, my cat couldn't be happier. We have both been discovering that we have a fairly active frog population behind the barn. The swallows, wrens, and mallards have been active too. It is interesting to have some new totems for the property show up. Rabit, raven and squirel have all been active this winter along with the neighborhood stray cats and dogs.

I have started some rosemary plants for the front gate. This weekend I will start my wormwood, mugwort and hyssop seeds indoors. (For those not in this climate, we don't really plant outside until late May.)

Life, in a word is very much happy! Next post may even include some picturesof the various happenings around the trailer:)

Contemplative Cosmic Belly Button Lint of the Day/Week

I constantly mull around my own behavioral patterns and mental processes to help deal with all the crap that comes our way wither we want it or not. Lately, I find myself being equally angered and bewildered on how much I have let other people control my relationships (romantic, platonic, or otherwise).

I am embarrassed to admit that because of the years of emotional abuse and isolation, I have begun to feel that getting so have time with other people is a reward/punishment for how much my behavor has pleased my partner. Even if I know logically that I am not seeing someone because I am tired or other events in my or their life have superceded getting together there is still an underlying conviction that either the gods are punishing me for something or if it is the other party cancelling that they are punishing me for something. The degree of that conviction is usually equal to the amount of other events have been cancelled or denied that week or that day.

I am also ashamed to admit that I have been letting my inner Smeagol rule the response to said events. If Smeagol is an obtuse reference for you non Tolkein friends I join my previous detractors in a chorus of :"You don't have any friends. Nobody likes you."

So what have I been doing to stop Smeagol and possibily something you can do too?

I have been doing daily self blessing rituals. The one I like the best is something modified from the Garderarian kids....
Tools: Favorite candle color, favorite incense, favorite cake and ale offering

Ground and Center
Cast a circle if you desire
Call Watchtowers if you desire
Call God, Goddess of your choice
Call the ancesotors

Thank you Lord and Lady for creating me to be your divine daughter/son.
Blessed Be my feet that have brought me along the way.
Blessed be my knees that kneel at the sacred altar.
Blessed be my womb/phallus that issues forth life.
Blessed be my ears for hearing the words of the gods.
Blessed be my mouth for speaking their wisdom.

So mote it be.

Continue to think about all the good quaities you have and the friends and family you are blessed with. Continue to imagine the road and door open to receive positive relationships that are mutualy encouraging.

When you are ready, offer up the cake and ale offering and consume.
Dismiss the circle, etc and journal the experience.

move on when you are ready.


If you are involved in any reiki work, this is a good time to do an attunement on yourself. If you are a 2nd degree or high the use of the symbols and their names as a mantra can also significantly help.

Blessed Be.

Impatiently waiting for the thaw...

Its hard to believe that the spring equinox is around the corner. Hard to believe since in the frozen tundra we have feet of snow still. My hot water pipes are frozen again and we get positively giddy when we reach any number above 0.  However, I am assured there are signs of spring.

As the Lord and Lady have given birth to the divine child, we have the sale of girl scout cookies. The basketball season is slowly turning towards playoffs. The stores are full of the weird cross over of St. Patrick's Day and Easter/Ostara decorations.

So, I have hope that once again I will see green instead of white outside my front door. Eventually I will get to have coffee on my deck and contemplate life, the universe, and everything.

As assuredly as those girl scout cookies aren't going to eat themselves, spring will get here and we will be warm again.

Forgiveness and the Hierophant

It seems a little shallow to only focus a day on forgiveness issues and the Hierophant. The Hierophant is all about how organized religion, education and popular culture form our identiy and our views about outselves.

I don't know about you but I could spend years analysising how I was offended and hurt by organized religion let along school. Both experiences left something to be desired. But the exercise isn't so much about laying blame on other people but identifying the broken places and being willing to let go of the past and the dream that it could have been different. Even where the Church is concerned or our teacher from the 7th grade who didn't ahre our vision of world dominaion...er I mean peace.....

My point being, we all have things that we wish could have been different. If we live constnatly in the shadow of what should have been we blind ourselves to the possibilities that are and the future ibes that could be. The other interesting lesson in this is the following: we humans are prone to screw up by our very nature. We cannot possibly keep everyone's desires in focus, That type of demand is simply nerve wracking and crazy making. If we cannot find forgiveness for those in or out of power around us, we won't find it for ourselves. We can only find externally what we see internally.

I am not sure I will go through each card individually. It may focus more on the cards that I still struggle with ainterpreting.

Blessed Be.

Forgiveness and the Tarot Journey Part 1

Someone once defined forgiveness as the belief that the past could have been different and letting go of that belief.
Forgiveness is a deliberate act of compassion. Not so much for the other person or situation we are being offended by but for us, the individual letting go of the bitterness and hatred that has been build up over perceived or actual offenses.

There are a lot of issues that have lead me to choose to focus 2014 on the deliberate act of forgiveness. There is ritual and meditation involved for me to help remind me to let go. One of the tools I use is the tarot.

The tarot is its own mystery school with multiple systems for interpretation. I tend to use a key word or key phrase type of system for this work. It helps me to formulate questions for journal writing and ritual creation.

For this last week, I have been working through the first five cards of the major arcana: the fool, the magician, the high priestess, the empress, and the emperor.

The thing I find interesting is that all five of these cards reflect our sense of innocence connection with our personal power. Forgiveness on this level tends to focus on those that had us question our goddess given gifts and abilities. Forgiveness on this level, is not just about our parents, teachers, friends who had us second guess our talents but forgiving ourselves for not trusting what we knew to be true about ourselves. Intuition is a powerful for that way. It is not just about trusting what we are being told by "them" about the future but trusting what we believe about the future too.